Before I announce the results for the CT Scan, I have to start with an adorable picture. A dear friend found this Chinese Girl Nutcracker and thought to give it to her the day of her appointment. It was a perfect smile-maker after her day of pokes and tears.
She went from loving on her "baby" to attempting to feed her baby.
The results of the CT Scan have us stumped, the ENT does not see anything abnormal that would indicate conductive hearing loss as has been witnessed in not one, but two audiology tests. To be told that your child is deaf in an ear and then well, maybe not...leaves. me. speechless.
I don't know if we should be upset because the tests were wrong, or believe that they were right and thank God for a healing. We definitely want to have another audiology test done elsewhere to try and get some unbiased data from another testing site.
The test, however, is not an area that Raimey would have "failed" to answer correctly, it's something different that is a machine's way of testing movement in the ear. And, it's rarely wrong...which has even the specialist stumped right now, because as I said, there were 2 agreeing reports of deafness.
We all deal with our stress in different ways and for me, I wanted answers...not more questions. I was frustrated upon hearing this news because it means more tests, more looking for answers (if we choose to keep looking). But, while I felt myself beginning to wallow because of what our girl has been through and what seemed an entire day of "all-for-not"... I peeked in on this.
Smiles.
Giggles.
Laughter.
And JOY.
She knows what I often forget.... how to be thankful for here and now, not to worry about tomorrow.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10 NIV
What a great end to your post. I'm sorry there's no clear/for sure answers, but I'm glad your sweet girl helped put things in perspective again.
ReplyDeletePerfect love casts out fear! More questions is hard but necessary somehow. Hang in there. What a happy girl.
ReplyDeleteGorgeous girl who is fearfully and wonderfully made in HIS image.
ReplyDeleteI can't believe I just saw this post!! Oh, Angie - I want to tell you that we are dealing with the same issue. The EXACT same issue! Isabella failed 2 hearing tests. one ear flat lined on the pressure test showing a perforated ear drum & her sedated ABR showed she is deaf in the right ear and possibly some hearing loss in the left. They diagnosed her with Auditory Neuropathy, BUT you would never know she has any type of hearing loss - she talks like crazy - pronunciates beautifully, but the tests don't lie. So, we are starting over the process with the ENT Clinic at UNC Chapel Hill. She is having another sedated ABR & possibly CT scan on the 8th of April. I will be praying for you all for answers - I'd love to talk to you more...it sounds like we are on the same unknown journey.
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