Before I announce the results for the CT Scan, I have to start with an adorable picture. A dear friend found this Chinese Girl Nutcracker and thought to give it to her the day of her appointment. It was a perfect smile-maker after her day of pokes and tears.
She went from loving on her "baby" to attempting to feed her baby.
The results of the CT Scan have us stumped, the ENT does not see anything abnormal that would indicate conductive hearing loss as has been witnessed in not one, but two audiology tests. To be told that your child is deaf in an ear and then well, maybe not...leaves. me. speechless.
I don't know if we should be upset because the tests were wrong, or believe that they were right and thank God for a healing. We definitely want to have another audiology test done elsewhere to try and get some unbiased data from another testing site.
The test, however, is not an area that Raimey would have "failed" to answer correctly, it's something different that is a machine's way of testing movement in the ear. And, it's rarely wrong...which has even the specialist stumped right now, because as I said, there were 2 agreeing reports of deafness.
We all deal with our stress in different ways and for me, I wanted answers...not more questions. I was frustrated upon hearing this news because it means more tests, more looking for answers (if we choose to keep looking). But, while I felt myself beginning to wallow because of what our girl has been through and what seemed an entire day of "all-for-not"... I peeked in on this.
She knows what I often forget.... how to be thankful for here and now, not to worry about tomorrow.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10 NIV